MY LIFE

by Rachel Berghash

MY LIFE

has diminished

to the bed on which I lie

to the cacti

you bought for my birthday

to the dinner table

where you sliced bread

I MISS YOU

when I sit for dinner

and your portrait

stares at me

when I talk to God

Before sleep

a humorous story of yours

the chuckle In your voice

when I hear a dog barking

in the park

when I see

lightening and you say

did you see that

when you wake up and tell me

your Arabian Nights dream

when I come home and we

say hi to each other

even in our dark moments

I liked hearing your key in the door

our door

LONGING

“Go to the limits of your longing”

Rilke

I go to the full extent of my longing

To a point

Where I cannot go any further

A point of trembling

I long to go beyond that point

And see you as transparent as a

Great Song

PASSING BY

Before midnight

You say I am going to bed

And I say me too

We wash

And wear our bed clothes

Under blankets

I talk to God

And you listen to BBC

Interrupting my prayers

With news

Small hours of the night

Small secrets divulged

Without hesitation

DEATH

Through the window

A swirl of wind was so strong

It broke a branch

Of the avocado plant

It hit you

Striking your left arm and leg

Your vocal cords

Your heart

While I sat by your side

Watching you perish slowly

You seemed obedient to the call

Of death

SADNESS

My sadness is greater than me

Before sleep it turns

Rock-hard

Warding off any thought

Of comfort

It dwells

Below my chest

Quickening my breath

Don’t be frightened by sadness

Said the great poet

Let it stir you

Bring you closer to yourself

BEYOND REACH

When anxious

My chest aching

My head buzzing

I would tell you what it’s about

You said it’s about nothing

The man

Who made my worries vanish

Vanishes